A little over two years ago I went through probably the toughest period anyone goes through at some point in their life.
Heartbreak.
I had ended a special relationship that had its unique ups and downs for almost five years. Five years is a long time to develop a sense of trust, belonging and comfort with another soul. It was definitely not a small endeavor when I had made the final decision to end things.
The effects of any heartbreak are one that honestly, I believe can change a person. For within it there is a shift in emotional energy & realization of self in a broader manner… all the while realizing a whole new world of opportunity.
The pain came and the long emotional nights struck each night with its own demons to battle, as I longed for one night without thinking about her. It was tough. I am not going to lie and while many people can relate at some point, there is a turning point that everyone must face that really taught me something.
Till today I attribute the sequence of events and emotional struggle to something of higher consciousness. You see, though I did not realize it, there was a bigger plan at play — and I was the protagonist.
What I discovered during that period is the basis of what I want to share with you today. A little concept called Faith.
It was faith that kept me from crumbling.
Faith that reinforced my mind that there is still good in your life.
That really love and all other emotions are never truly lost when we experience life, but instead transformed into new forms all around us daily.
It was mind altering. Although not exactly easy to cultivate from the beginning or simple to grasp. As a matter of fact it was an actual climb.
I had my first interaction of faith, when I realized that the pain I was feeling of loss of love was something that was residing within me.
Something that deep deep down I had control off.
Initially this seemed far out — trust me coming from a business/technology background my mind was so occupied with other things, it seemed odd to think of alternate causes other than that from the external world.
But then again, who else can feel your pain..?
The only way out had to be, to go down within.
You would find me sitting with my legs crossed thinking about the deep swells of feelings that were crashing inside of me on a Saturday night.
I would sit there and just feel.
Feel everything. Good, bad, in between.
Those were both surreal and tense times.
But then something happened. I noticed my breathing deepen. My body suddenly find space to extend and relax.
Areas in my body started to ease, releasing tension I didn’t even know I had.
I was changing because I sensed that I was going deeper into the mind & through it the body.
This sensation was truly alleviating. A remedy to where my mind was so negatively occupied.
I focused on learning more of it.
From it — I realized that what I really was doing was meditating.
Meditation. Slowing the mind down. Being still. This practice became an obsession to me because I wanted detailed knowledge of myself & why this seemed to feel so right.
How could I have always been this calm and euphoric at the same time?
Point is that it felt like a super power. One that I was so grateful for discovering.
My mind went deep. Down into the reservoirs of memories & senses that I didn’t even know I could recall.
Again it was a period of serenity.
I kept wanting to go deeper. Deeper to learn more about myself and this power of being still. To find presence in oneself.
My meditations were enjoyably long mixed in with yoga and journaling of thoughts that came to mind.
Looking back, that was very productive and good for me.
But it still couldn’t remove the pain I carried in my heart.
At most I could understand why & how I felt the sadness — however, could not alleviate it.
Now there comes a point in my journey…. Where I reached a point in myself that I believe I had an awareness to see more of who I was than I thought I knew.
The breathing, the yoga exercises were building a new image and sensation within myself that I didn’t think existed.
But there was more to it.
At some point in the deepest parts of my mind a thought came to me which resonated with the fibers of my being. This thought would become the foundation of my healing.
It was this:
“You have within you all the means to heal yourself and become the beautiful, powerful, confident person you are to be. Within you is all the love, energy & goodness that you want in your life. Realize the power that is within you and feel it in every breath as you change you actively shape your reality”
This was a mantra.
A belief that was felt from so within that it became the motto of my process to realize the potential.
What happened next is hard to explain yet beautiful in realizing the effect it had.
At first in saying this mantra to myself I began to shift my thoughts to the positive in everything.
I realized that I had a choice in how I chose to see my world.
That I could bring to any situation the energy and conversations I wanted with people that I wanted because I was aligned with who I was and what I represented.
See, though these statements are vague at first what I was really doing was cultivating faith.
Later as I studied this process of positive affirmation & emotion behind my thought I put together the intricate pieces of what Faith was.
See Faith is the power of belief.
It is the acknowledgement of energy towards a thought that you want to realize in your reality.
I wanted to change my reality to reflect positivity, love, happiness & excitement. I knew being home and moping around was not going to benefit me because I lacked the belief that my reality could change.
But I had to channel my energy towards something.
Why? Because through my readings I discovered, that we carry thoughts everyday at every moment in time that act as the starting point to all motion of energy in this world.
Seeing that the type of thought you hold in your mind determined its respective outcome.
For me — faith was my champion emotion.
Faith was that outlet to cultivate thoughts & emotions that led to a new perspective in life.
For what I began to realize was that the emotion of faith is single handedly the strongest thought energy anyone can create that will change their reality.
Now for me — I found my faith to build my image and perspective in life to feel energetic to whatever I wanted.
I channeled the thought energy to favour self-confidence, resilience & a sense of letting go and just going with the flow.
But Faith can do so much more.
Because our choice in thoughts is the ultimate intersection of where your mind takes a thought and charges it with energy.
The energy we charge is with our emotions.
Emotions are crazy powerful forces that we as humans have still to understand and master.
But it’s these emotions that drive our decisions daily.
Naturally, an emotion mixed with thought is one that resonates deeper within the body & mind.
Faith — as the leader, the champion of change and captain of action.
A thought mixed with faith is unstoppable because; he who believes with conviction of his thought is surely to manifest and attract to him/her the forces to realize it.
Now this was something that you will see come up in many studies of the mind. Specifically the Napoleon Hill Text ‘Think & Grow Rich’ as well as the ‘Power of The Subconscious Mind’ by Joseph Murphy. These books highlight the immutable power the mind has to bring forth change to anyone who wields the emotion of faith with thought.
And so my world began to change.
People came into my life that opened more perspective & excitement.
I experienced things in the world learning about who I was. It was as if I was in my own space of discovery — everyday just filled with adventure.
Now I want to note something that with the devotion to faith there is a big difference to a similar but vastly different emotion called Hope.
Though I do not ignore that Hope as an emotion during these times — the use of the emotion was vastly different.
In fact Faith & Hope are like two sibling emotions both unique in their own.
Firstly, faith can be described as one that takes on an active force approach. One that you must input energy and compels you to take action with conviction. Faith is empowering.
Hope on the other hand is still powerful, however is an emotion that relies on passive belief. Meaning that one only has to hold the hope in their mind and does not call for action or power in self to do anything.
The two distinctions of one requiring involvement & action as responsibility the other of resilience and passivity is what defines the two.
Truthfully this is what also compelled me to gravitate strongly towards faith because I desired taking a driving position in my life.
End of the day — the method of which this was all achieved is as follows;
- Realizing that from within your infinite power of potential resides in you and that you can find the answers you seek
- A thought held in your mind determines your reality
- Faith is the strongest emotion to charge your mind with positivity towards an outcome
It was the change in thought that asked me to go deep within to stir the change.
Once I had kindled something I had to wrap that feeling with the positivity of the goodness all around me in my life. But most of all — elevate my belief with the emotion of faith that what I seek will come to me.
I see now in my personal journey that faith has been a deciding factor in many of my choices in life.
Perhaps it has also been for you also.
One thing is for certain… that there is always more opportunity, love, happiness & good that can be brought forth into the world, and by using the power of Faith in our thoughts we really are empowered to bring forth that change.
Truly, if there is one tool to use to bring forth such angelic force — it is Faith.
I find that on my journey I have become more spiritual than religious and yet found the beautiful similarity that prayer in all religions is the act of faith.
So surely there is beauty in all steps in our lives though we cannot see it at the time.
I have faith, now and always for within myself and for the greatness of mankind.
I am sure that you too as my reader have within you massive reservoirs of greatness that with faith can bring forth the amazing change we seek.
I can not wait to see where it will take you and me on our journey.
